disconnected

I want to feel what amnesia feels like. And what its like to never say sorry to people or apologize for things I'm not truly sorry or apathetic about. No one is 100% free. You can be free of one thing or another but not of everything. Free is made up. I want to know what Nothing is, cause its definitely something. Does it exist within a boundary other then the word we've attached to it? No one knows what its like to be dead either.